So here I am plowing through my ToK Essay, or at least trying to but just 15 minutes into it and I'm already feeling the pain. Here I am stuck on the 10 deadly fallacies which I have no intention of going over tonight. I'm still weighing up my decisions on whether I should keep trying to work on the essay or to leave it to tomorrow. It's going to be pretty risky and I might just be kicking myself in the butt tomorrow for leaving my ToK essay to be done in a night but I really have zero motivation to finish it tonight. Then again, I think I've lost all my motivation to do anything related to school ever since I finished my exams.

Anyway, I'm going to go on with my usual rants.

Of course this depends on what day it is - holiday, weekend or school day but I suppose in general, it would have to be sleeping. For holidays and weekends it'd usually be from 12 to 11 the next day but on school days it would be 11 to 6:30 (Notice the lack of sleep I get on school days.) The best part of sleeping is that I'm not only comfortably lying in bed and dreaming of wonderful things that can never happen in reality but I'm all cozy and warm under my blankets with the cold air conditioner in the room. I don't need to put up with the daily crap I deal with, no need to work, no need to think, just relax. And sleep. Even when I am half awake in the morning I can laze around and roll around for awhile, before finally getting out of bed.

In fact, I think my bed (or maybe my room) is my favourite or really, only place that I can I suppose, chill. The dining room is where I work late on homework and really most of the time when I'm downstairs, I'm busy working my ass off to finish an assignment in time. And then there would be those times when people just annoy the hell out of you. As if things aren't bad enough. When I'm in my room, I can watch my TV, read my books, magazines, no need to have to be stuck in between all the conflict going on downstairs, or next doors and yeah, it's generally between my rents and my brother. I'll always be miserable Switzerland stuck in the middle of the fight. And then ending up being the damn punching bag too. So in my room, I can hide from all of that. Till one of them comes in that is.

My other favourite time of the day I guess would be when I'm in the shower, taking my long hot bath for, at least half an hour? So refreshing and I can just take my own time in there, mostly where I do my thinking actually. And again, I can get away from all the stuff going on which I don't wish to hear or be part of. And, I get to feel squeaky clean after the shower which is always a good feeling.

So people, the two possibly most annoying things that you can do to piss me off (which sadly, my rents do happen to do sometimes which annoys the hell out of me) is 1) drag me out of bed early and 2) rush me when I'm in the shower. Those are my two very important times of the day for my resting and relaxing so don't I guess "cut it short" because any of those two things would make me a very, very unhappy grumpy, cranky person. Those are the only two times of the day where I have time to myself to cut myself off from reality and just hide in this little fantasy world in my head where I don't have to face all the other stuff I deal with everyday.

And I have to end my rant there because I'm going up to bed. I'm going to work hard tomorrow and finish that ToK essay, no more slacking. Well, I can't procrastinate anymore tomorrow anyway.